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Shepherd of My Soul

We are all made differently. We all have our own challenges our own crosses to bear. Listen with your heart and no matter how low you feel, never give up Hope. You are here for a reason. I don't care how much I pour my heart out anymore, that is how God made me.

https://youtu.be/CAtFsfQT5ZM

God, in my desperate plea

God, in my desperate plea please hear me.
No one understands how I feel but you.
This feeling of feeling unloved, uncared for, unwanted is deeply ingrained in me.
No matter how much I do, or say, or feel my heart hurts and aches
for a pure heart and soul connection.

I am human. I make mistakes. I want to be loved.

Always seeking.
Always searching for truth.

I feel I am not worthy of love.

I miss my Mom and Dad and Bella.

Choose Love over Hate

Choose Love over Hate

I realize that today is the age of "spewing hate" online and everywhere.
and it falls under the category of "freedom of speech" and "it's just my opinion" and
I'm entitled to say "whatever I want".

Children do it.
Teenagers do it.
Adults do it.

But when did we fall so far away from being human beings and having values of
love, care and respect for one another.

We don't always have to agree with one another, but it is important that we lean to
respect each other.

I just wish that people would realize that "spewing hate"
of any kind, hurts someone, damages someone, and can create more
mental health issues for our society.

When you spew hate at someone that other person can internalize
that hate and start to feel

rejected
worthless
at worst, suicidal,

or start to feel
anger
frustration and
at worst, lead to violence

spewing hate can lead to bullying and violence

spewing hate can destroy friendships, relationships

I just hope and pray that people will realize that spewing hate
of any kind is never a good thing. It always hurts someone out there.
Until we learn to start caring again, and caring about hurting others, damaging others
and realizing that hate creates more problems mentally and emotionally,
we will never realize that love is more powerful than hate.

Love builds.
Hate destroys.

While I know guns physically kill people and everyone says focus on
mental health, I also hope that people realize that the tongue and our words
emotionally kill people and increases those mental health issues.
Maybe there would be less damaged people in the world if we started to care again
about the words we say that spew hatred.

I know there are times in life that make everyone angry but I also believe that hatred never does any good and we still need to eventually come back to love.  I still believe that love is the answer.

I wish we would return to those values of old
where it's more important to be nice than to mean.
to care about others again, and to be wise enough to know
and to teach children that differing of opinions
does not have to lead to spewing of hate
for after all we are all in this world together.

I'm actually thinking of giving up social media because it just makes me sad and it always reminds me of how few friends I have.David Archuleta has talked about it. And he's right. You compare your life with others and feel like everyone else is having a better time, more friends, etc. etc. Maybe I post sad things, maybe I post things people are not interested in, maybe I post religious things. But whatever the case may be. I am different.and social media leaves me feeling empty at the end of the day. I just don't have the energy to post sometimes. I thank those who have stood by me and remained my friend.

And one day, just like that, she got tired of pouring out her feelings, while no one listened.

Some people have low self-esteem and it's really not their fault.
Maybe they grew up in a home not receiving that love and nurturing
at a young age. Maybe their parents died or weren't around.
Maybe they were still a kid but had to grow up fast and be an adult.
Maybe they lived in bad situations where there was alcohol or drug
abuse.

Low self-esteem is a deeply embedded wound.
Perhaps a person was emotionally abused or physically abused.

Perhaps they suffer from abandonment and rejection issues.
Maybe in school they were made fun of.

It is hard to love others when you don't love yourself.
It can take a lifetime of developing self-esteem.

You have to reaffirm to yourself every day that you have value
and worth and certain situations will remind you of all these
bad feelings again resurfacing, rejection, abandonment each
time they occur.

That is why I love David's new CD - Postcards in the Sky.

These songs help me to believe in myself. Find my voice.
Know that I was put here on this Earth for a reason.

His music gives me hope and faith and a sense of connection
with something. If not people, than God himself.

One of my favorite songs on his new album is
SAY ME

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5hBkBht4PI