Thursday, December 3, 2015

A Prayer


A Prayer
(an excerpt from "Enjoy the Lord" by Father John Catoir)

I have a prayer I want you to read.
Maybe it will help you.
Even if you can't say you believe,
just try reading it once in a while--
and thinking about it.
Just imagine that God is talking to you.

You do not have to be cleaver to please me;
all you have to do is want to love me.
Just speak to me as you would to anyone
of whom you are very fond.

Are there any people you want to pray for?
Say their names to me, and ask of me as much as you like.
I am generous, and know all their needs, but I want you to
show your love for them and me by trusting me to do what
I know is best.

Tell me about the poor, the sick, and the sinners, and
if you have lost the friendship or affection of anyone,
tell me about that too.

Is there anything you want for your soul?
If you like, you can write out a long list of all
your needs, and come and read it to me.
Tell me of the things you feel guilty about.
I will forgive you if you will accept it.

Just tell me about your pride, your touchiness,
self-centeredness, meanness and laziness.
I still love you in spite of these.
Do not be ashamed; there are many saints
in heaven who had the same faults as you;
they prayed to me and little by little,
their faults were corrected.

Do not hesitate to ask me for blessing
for the body and mind; for health, memory, success.
I can give everything and I always do give everything
needed to make souls holier for those who truly want it.

What is it that you want today? Tell me, for I long
to do you good.  What are your plans?  Tell me about them.
Is there anyone you want to please? What do you want
to do for them?

And don't you want to do anything for me?
Don't you want to do a little good to the souls
of your friends who perhaps have forgotten me?
Tell me about your failures, and I will show you
the cause of them.  What are your worries?
Who has caused you pain?  Tell me all about it
and add that you will forgive, and be kind to him,
and I will bless you.

Are you afraid of something?  Have you any
tormenting, unreasonable fears?  Trust yourself to me.
I am here.  I see everything.  I will not leave you.

Have you no joys to tell me about?
Why do you not share your happiness with me?
Tell me what has happened since yesterday
to cheer and comfort you.  Whatever it was,
however big, however small, I prepared it.
Show me your gratitude and thank me.

Are temptations bearing heavily upon you?
Yielding to temptations always disturbs the peace of your soul.
Ask me, and I will help you overcome them.

Well, go along now.  Get on with your work, or play,
or other interests.  Try to be quieter, humbler, more
submissive, kinder; and come back soon and
bring me a more devoted heart.  Tomorrow I shall
have more blessings for you.

Saturday, August 29, 2015

"He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother"

The road is long
With many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows when
But I'm strong
Strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

So on we go
His welfare is of my concern
No burden is he to bear
We'll get there
For I know
He would not encumber me
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

If I'm laden at all
I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart
Isn't filled with the gladness
Of love for one another

It's a long, long road
From which there is no return
While we're on the way to there
Why not share
And the load
Doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

He's my brother
He ain't heavy, he's my brother...

I always loved The Osmonds version of this song:


Smile


Sometimes I wish I smiled more.
But I don't much anymore.
And it's not like I don't appreciate things,
because I really do...even the smallest
act of kindness...I really appreciate.

But it's really hard for me to smile anymore.

If I go to a gathering or around people I will.
But my normal expression is very serious.

A lot of people in the street stop me and
ask me why I look so down all the time,
or that I look very tired.

I do always feel tired...very tired.

I feel bogged down sometimes
just thinking of things.
Whether it's my own things,
medical things, or just the world
and what I see and read online.

The negativity I read every day.
The anger, the hatred online.
Watching or reading the news.

It all gets me down.
There is just so much of it really.

Maybe that's why I like David Archuleta.
He always brings a smile to my face.







Monday, July 20, 2015

"Until You Won Me Over" by Trent Dabbs featured on One Tree Hill




Why you gotta look so sad 
Why'd you pick today 
Don't talk yourself out of this 
We're all afraid 

They say it comes when you don't look 
So I'll help you look away 
You always try to make me smile 
Let me do the same 

Oh I was given the sunlight 
A thousand chances to live a sweet life 
Oh I cut all my loses 
I thought I lost you 

Until you won me over 
Until you won me over... darling 

I'll live off the hope I find 
To talk to you all night 
And we'll put all the stars together 
And make them line 

Running circles in the wind 
As we're falling free 
I'm never looking back this time 
Just stay with me 

Oh I was given the sunlight, 
A thousand chances to live a sweet life 
Oh I had cut all my loses 
I thought I lost you 

Until you won me over 
Until you won me over... 
Darling ... darling 

Oh I was given the sunlight, 
A thousand chances to live a sweet life 
Oh I had cut all my loses 
I thought I lost you 

Until you won me over 
Until you won me over... darling

Friday, July 3, 2015

Laundry Day


Today I went out to do laundry.
As I was waiting for it, I sat outside on a bench.
I had a lot on my mind.
I was thinking of Mom and Bella.
I was thinking of all the hate in the world.
It bothers me that there is so much hate
in the world.

I sat there for about 20 minutes.
I closed my eyes to look up at the sun.
It was nice and sunny outside.
I just wanted to feel the sun on my face.

I guess you could say I was having a
conversation with God. I always like to do that.

When I opened my eyes and looked
down at the bench I saw a little medal
right beside me.
Now, I was sitting there for 20 minutes
with my eyes opened and didn't notice
the medal.  So I don't if it was there and
I just didn't notice it?  Or, if someone put
it there when I had my face turned up to
the sky and my eyes closed.

It was a little crucifix with Mary and Joseph on it.
I picked it up and turned it over.

It said:
"Jesus, Mary, Joseph
Be with us on our way."

I took it to mean
God is with me.
I can't change the world.
I can only do my part.
Just keep doing good.
Everything will be ok.
I am always with you.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Forgiveness



Because of my insecurities, I make a lot of mistakes
and use poor judgment, and make poor choices.

Just know that I am truly sorry.

Because I admire or care too much it
ends up looking like something else.

My need to be liked ends up ruining things.

I want to keep trying to do better.

I know God forgives me,
but do I forgive myself?

I beat myself up so badly.

I hope one day
I will like myself enough
to not seek other's approval.

I know deep down inside
I have a good heart and God knows my heart.

But, I still struggle with insecurities
that end up making things much worse.

I hope you can forgive me.
I hope I can make better choices.
I hope I can forgive myself.


Thursday, February 5, 2015

Nobody Cares


but nobody cares
nobody cares
if they hurt you

they just keep going
as if it didn't matter

round and round
into oblivion

nobody cares
nobody cares

hurt
hurt
ignore
just keep on

hurting
hurting
hurting

because
nobody cares
anymore

people don't care
who they hurt
it's all a game

People's feelings are not a joke
or a game to me.

They are real
They are important

Monday, January 26, 2015

Care





Here's the problem I have with today's society:

It goes something like this:

You can't take my being sarcastic.
You get all hurt and what not.
I'm just being real and honest.
If you can't take it, that's your problem.
I don't care what you think
I don't like fake people.
I like to be real and tell it like it is.
You need to toughen up.
It's a bad world out there.
and what we want to say
we need to say
because we can
and we will
regardless of how it affects someone, right?


But here's what I have to say about all that:

maybe it would be nice if people did care?
about hurting other people's feelings?
how about holding back?
and not blurting out?
how about refraining?
because you care about other people's feelings
for a change.
It takes more strength to care about others.
doesn't it?

It takes more strength to not blurt out the first
thing that comes to mind and to stop and think
how it might affect someone else, doesn't it?

Maybe it's time to start caring about
other people's feelings?

cause we're only human

I wonder when people
will start to care enough
about each other

to "not say".

When you care about others
it sometimes means "pausing".

I believe that
"freedom of speech"
should include
"freedom of thought".

Cause words can tear apart
what took a lifetime to build
and sometimes words can tear apart
someone who does not want to live

Hate never brings about love
Hate never inspires anyone
Hate never encourages anyone

The purpose of life
is to love, inspire and encourage
each of us to be the best we can be.

Caring is priceless.



Sunday, January 4, 2015

Good Deeds

Excerpt from "Keeping it to Ourselves" by Kiwa L. Jefferson.