And one day, just like that, she got tired of pouring out her feelings, while no one listened.

Some people have low self-esteem and it's really not their fault.
Maybe they grew up in a home not receiving that love and nurturing
at a young age. Maybe their parents died or weren't around.
Maybe they were still a kid but had to grow up fast and be an adult.
Maybe they lived in bad situations where there was alcohol or drug
abuse.

Low self-esteem is a deeply embedded wound.
Perhaps a person was emotionally abused or physically abused.

Perhaps they suffer from abandonment and rejection issues.
Maybe in school they were made fun of.

It is hard to love others when you don't love yourself.
It can take a lifetime of developing self-esteem.

You have to reaffirm to yourself every day that you have value
and worth and certain situations will remind you of all these
bad feelings again resurfacing, rejection, abandonment each
time they occur.

That is why I love David's new CD - Postcards in the Sky.

These songs help me to believe in myself. Find my voice.
Know that I was put here on this Earth for a reason.

His music gives me hope and faith and a sense of connection
with something. If not people, than God himself.

One of my favorite songs on his new album is
SAY ME

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5hBkBht4PI

The months of November, December and January are very hard for me.
I love the Holidays of Thanksgiving and Christmas and the mark of a New Year.
I love the season of Autumn. I love the changing colors of leaves. I love the
cool weather. I love the snow but not so much walking in it if it's icy outside
because I'm afraid of falling.

But at the same time they are reminders of me of things that have happened
in my life that are sad.  It seems around these holidays is when bad or sad
things have happened in my life.

New Year's reminds me of two break-ups with boyfriends I've had in the past.
My Dad passed away around Thanksgiving.
My Mom passed away  on December 28th between Christmas and New Year's
and New Year's Eve the night Times Square is lit up with happy faces to ring
in the New Year I was going to her burial.

My dog who meant everything to me passed away September 10th.

So as much as I try to be happy during these Holidays they are bittersweet for me.

I still try and look forward to them but it's really hard for me. They are overshadowed
with melancholy for good reason. I will always miss those I loved.

But I will also try to remain present in the moment, cherish the memories I have yet
to make and continue to accept my feelings (good or bad) that exist in my heart.
I feel it is important to accept our feelings during difficult times.  To pretend or deny they
are not there...it only makes one feel worse.

So now I just try to remain in the present moment, make new memories and continue
to embrace whatever feeling shows up for me and accept it with all my heart.

Just knowing that God is always there for me and knows what's in my heart helps to get
me through whenever I am feeling sad or down.

People think they know you, but they really don't. My past, things I've been through, if they only knew the things I've overcome, they probably wouldn't even believe it or think it. But, I know. I need to look at this more and be proud how far I've come. My life has not been easy so many struggles but I just keep going. Unfortunately, there's no one safe I feel comfortable enough with to share my story.